I have had a very difficult week, I really am not sure why.
oh.. I know why, Who am I trying to fool?
I am at an age where I am supposedly full of wisdom
but why am I feeling the opposite,
One of my "friends" said to me now your over 50 can you get a senior discount??.
That pretty much made me LOSE it I think.
Although AARP has been sending me information
for 1 year now wanting me to sign up for their Magazine.
I laughed it off. But with the comment, "Senior"...
Then My mind begins going places I never should let it go.
I began wondering if maybe my husband was having a wandering "eye".
Did he think my new found AGE was not becoming to me.
I am sure my husband would be much happier with a 30 year old.
Who has no self worth/esteem issues. Who doesn't care that 1 one year has
been tacked on to her life.
I have been Looking for every opportunity to berate and belittle myself.
Just because I think this is OLD.. because i think someone else TOLD me I am old.
Fifty didn't sound so bad.. I really didn't have such a hard time there.
But this year wow.. someone lock me up for a few more days.. because I
don't feel this Roller Coaster Rider over.
How can I be the person I want to be, when I feel old and unattractive?
Where in the book of life does it say aging and getting old are the same thing..
I never felt OLD until this year. I guess that might be the beginning of the problem.
I feel as though I have aged 5 years in the past 1. The cause of that I think is mostly health
related issues.There are a lot of things I have trouble doing these days, and I don't have the
energy or stamina that I once did.
so.. on ward and upward (right?) .. I won't ever get younger.
So I may as well embrace this age that has followed me here.
Welcome to your 50's and have a wonderful ride.
didn't someone say 50's were the new 40's?